I know your face, and you will not win.
There are always choices that need to be made. You can choose to accept those things that are handed to you or you can choose to fight those things until they are something which you are willing to accept. While there are some elements that are simply beyond your control, they are a very limited few. Too often, one decides it is easier to accept that something is beyond one’s control than to accept the battle that must be waged to change it.
Is it easier to accept that it is beyond your control and therefore alleviate yourself of the need or desire to fight? Do you simply accept that you cannot change it because that is easier than the alternative?
What would happen if you chose instead not to accept it? If you chose to fight; fight with every fiber of your being? How many things that were previously thought to be beyond your control might you now be able to influence if you simply decide that you will accept no alternative other than the outcome you desire and design for yourself?
Get mad and fight back! Accept no answers other than that which you have chosen for yourself. Let no one set your limits for you, not the world, not society, not your family and not your own body. Fight with every ounce of who you are for that which you desire. You Must Not Yield! Fight the limitations imposed upon you. Fight with your very last breath, and even then fight until the last ounce of the last breath has been exhaled.
Let your anger fuel you. Let your passion drive you. Take every ounce of self-pity, remorse, sadness, emptiness, aloneness, and despair and turn that ounce into a pound of pure fight, of drive, of fire, of hatred, if that is what it takes.
I’ve seen my demon and I know its name. I also know its defeat. Complaining, wishing, hoping and dreaming will not defeat this demon. To the contrary, these things only feed it and make it stronger. Action, determination, anger, and even hatred of the demon itself, will fell this demon. It has grown so accustomed to fear and pity and sadness that it is incapable of withstanding other elements.
Demon, I have chosen my outcome. I will fight you on your terms and on your grounds and I will be victorious. Your greatest weapon was that you made me forget; forget my focus, forget my battle plan, forget that I can beat you. You tried to make me forget that the only power you hold over me is that which I gave you.
I revoke that power. You will not relinquish it easily, but that does not negate the fact that You Will Relinquish it.
I have seen your face. I know where you live. I know what your weaknesses are. You think you know mine, but I have turned my weakness into my strength. You are unprepared for this war. You still think this is a knife-fight, but I have brought out the tanks. You have fought a hard fight. You almost convinced me that you would win. In fact, you nearly convinced me that you had already won. Those days are over. Your days are numbered. Your defeat is imminent. You can go easily or you can go hard, but one way or another, you are going. Whether you know it or not, you have already been defeated.
You have been a worthy adversary, but you are not strong enough to deny me of the outcomes I have chosen. The game is up. Check mate.
(This was written at the beginning of my battle, December 1st, 2013)